My Father

My father
you were not my father

You abandoned my trust
You hated my mother
I never spoke to you again
You disappeared long before you died

But that’s okay

I tried to kill myself
but instead killed the man you taught me to hate

And now am ever-after left with joy
for I know my Father now
and He loves me—
in a thousand ways you never did
and then even afterward, unendingly more